Whaat ?

What am I saying ? Have no idea. That I want to despise you ? True. Is it successful ? Yes. Does it hurt ? Hell yeah. I despise everything that as to do with you, I try not to care, I try not to like, I try not to look, I try not to feel. You know so well the effect that you have on me, makes you feel good. Makes you feel great that no one can replace you. And guess what, you are right, you will never be replaced.. not it my heart. Not today, not in my life that keeps searching for the more that you keep giving and taking. I figured it out.. You are an ilusionist.. Your life is an ilusion, you make others lifes your life. Ilusion. What about it ? Is it ok ? No. I dont really care if your ilusion messed up my life, cause I know how to get up and keep walking. I'm affraid you wont do it. I know you wont.

And this is how much I care.